Have you ever watched an iceberg fall into the sea? First small pieces slide down the face of the ice, then cracks appear, then with a mighty groan, a huge chunk breaks off and falls into the water. Since a fateful October morning in 2007, little pieces of this world have been falling off of me. A lie here, a cultural fallacy there…each time something fell off I felt a million times lighter, knowing that another part of a lost and fallen world was no longer a part of me, even as it made me strange to this place.
Tonight, I rode my bike to the beach and was, as usual, asking Jesus to reveal the reason for my current state of unemployment – after all, it looks bad. I have struggled for over a decade. I have lost even my meager sources of income in the last few months. I have applied to jobs from cashier to receptionist to marketing executive, to no avail. I have nowhere to go or be when I awake in the morning. There is no check heading my way. In the middle of these thoughts, He said something stunning
“Regina, this is My rest. Enjoy it. I’ll take care you.”
In that moment, it happened. I felt a huge chunk of this world fall away with a mighty groan and crash.
In an instant I saw this season as a gift from Him. For the first time in a decade, no pressing activities that were necessary for my very survival. He was giving me something better.
Time with family and rest for my mind. Time with Him. And His peace came in like a tsunami. In a moment I saw His care, His love and the surety of His provision clearly. Those who walk with Jesus know what His peace feels like when it rushes in – and there is nothing like it.
A scripture which I have read a thousand times suddenly sprang to life in technicolor in my mind.
Matthew 11:28-30 Come to Me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light.”
I get it! My life has been tough for a long time now, but I have committed to turning to and learning from Him. And He is fulfilling the rest of the promise. Peace and Rest.
The fear of what was going to happen to little old me had to be released and crash into the sea before I could see it. I dont know what’s next. I don’t see an answer. It may not look right to the world. But I do know one thing. He is in it. And it is good.
Mark 6:31 And He said to them, “Come away by yourselves to a desolate place and rest a while.”
Having Jesus in your life is the best possible thing you can imagine. Please don’t let your cynicism stop you this time. Open your eyes and heart. He loves you and wants to change your life.